A letter to my Ex-Earpods

Dear Earpods,

Remember the first time we met, it delighted me to have you in my life. I never thought we would create such a powerful bond, unlike the other ones. You were reliable, always listening to my crazy thoughts, and when I shared my playlist with you, you never judge. A loyal companion with whom I traveled miles. You always comforted me, kept me at ease, and respected my choices. How I found a genuine friendship at an unlikely place. It’s been a while, and I miss you!

Those movie nights where we would cry together, the giggles we had, danced together and sung, some nostalgia, and heartwarming. You know today I saw a movie; it was a pleasant one, but I kept wondering if you were there with me. Right at the moment, to make my experience better like always. Escaping me from the actual world and taking me to another one. But I am heartbroken here today, facing the realities alone on this side of life. It’s so difficult without you. I need you.

I know it wasn’t always easy, the relationship we had. The spark slowly faded and it kind of became complicated. Yet every time we would try to untangle all the knots and make things work. However, things changed, you changed, and I remained there all same, wanting you, wishing you.

I know, I understand you might have been discouraged with me being careless with you. Placing you at random areas, not providing you the attention you deserved and acknowledgment. I might as well have been distracted and not value you because I assured myself that you were mine and would never leave. Never did I knew the possibility. As you were all I had, all I ever wanted.

I accept it, my fault, and the reality that you won’t be back. I am grateful for you being there with me on my thick and thins. And now that you’re gone, I’ve realized how much I have taken you for granted. How I am addicted to you. You know I see you everywhere, yet it’s never you. Something alike, similar, but not you. Because I would know, recognize you. With all the time we spent together, we’ve marked each other with love.

I still desire to be with you, crave for a little more of us together. With absolute awareness and acceptance, one last time just you and me. Where I would play our favorite playlist and just lay there with eyes closed and relishing your existence. And afterward, wave you goodbye with a smile on my face as I watch you go this time.

Yours,

Smritee Neupane.